^o^ To Feel It ^o^

For me to feel this
made me as week as I could.
You who hold my heart
could never feel it.
As it shattered to the point
it shall become a dust.


Why ..
Why do I still ...
want to feel it again.
I want it from you again.


I want to have that stupid smile.
To be the happiest person
just to look at you.
As if you are mine.


I have no confident
To hold you as mine.
I can never say you are mine.
Once you became mine,
my heart shall never want to let
you ever leave.


I tried to imagine..
You are mine but
I also imagined what is it like
when you walk away ..
My heart throb as if 
I shall never again have tomorrow.


I'm scared of my love to you.
Scared you'll love me 
because if you do ..
I will still have no confident in myself.


... it hurts ...