Dreaming about Mummy (Snow)

Hi,
if you guys haven't known of it,
but I have a cat named Snow,
I call her Mummy cause she gave birth to the little ones.

She's my favourite among the cats we own.
I'll share about how it goes there and what kind of cat she is,
but you all have to know,
I really loves her.

She went missing last year after Eid Fitri,
I cried a lot,
cause I wasn't home at that time,
I was in my hostel.

When I found out she went missing,
I remembered that I didn't say goodbye to her,
We were rushing back then and my mind told me,
'You don't have to say goodbye, you'll see her soon,
you can tell her then."

It hurts.
Then, I got this dream.
It's a weird dream.
I don't mind weird dreams but this one was different.
Mummy was in it.

I was carrying her around in a cat carrier.
I was hugging her, fixing her up.
She has some sort of wound on her hand,
but it wasn't bleeding or anything.
She was there. Around.

When I woke up,
I feel empty.
I feel longing.

Mew, her daughter was suppose to sleep with me.
I woke up  earlier than my little sis,
so I looked around the room,
and someone already let her out.

I gave it up and went back to sleep.
Feeling that longing and loneliness.

Before deciding to write this post,
I was letting Mew out of the house and stared at her.
She was staring into space at the gate for a long time,
a thought, no, more like screams of flooding thoughts,
'maybe she's hoping for Mummy to come home'
'maybe she still believes in her heart that she would'

I felt it again,
that bitter feeling in my heart.
I really misses her.
then I decided I should write this all out before I cry myself out again.

I wish we'll meet again.
I hope we will meet again.
and that time,
I want us to stay together for a very long time.